Liberation

The best part about having someone to call yours is being able to be mentally naked without having to fear. Without having to fear that they'd see the real you and run. Without the fear of being looked at like you have a filthy soul. Without having to tone down the depth of your emotions cause you know they'd meet you half way if not ALL the way. without the fear of them seeing your bare emotions and seeing weakness. 

But then sometimes when you take down the wall you had taken years to build for someone, they don't realize how hard it is for you to break down in-front of them, how excruciating it is to talk about pain, about hurt. Cause they are the only one you are capable to do it with. 

In rare cases, they perceive it as weakness. And the moment you hear their unspoken words, you feel it. You feel it back. The wall come back up stronger than ever. You begin to make sense of everything. How your words were ignored, how they were not given enough value, how they were not prioritized, how they were looked down on, how they were perceived as something they were not. 
So you stop. Bottle up all your shit and take it back. Put it behind the wall. Keep it all safe there. Away from people and how they look at it. So how do you feel better about crap without talking about them? Write. To yourself. Look at them when you forget who hurt you. Look at them who had gone out of their to help. Look to just remind yourself how strong and brave you were to had made it. If they see anything but strength in you, then they are trying to change you. 
DON'T LET THEM.